Weirdo

So I've recently decided that I'm weird.

Honestly, this isn't news to me. Actually, I think everybody thinks they're weird, I'm pretty sure that's a normal part of being a teenager. But I feel so awkward all of the time, like people just look at me, roll their eyes and say "that girl is so weird." And honestly, it feels like shit. Now I don't know if people say that, and I really hope they don't. How am I supposed to get a boyfriend if everyone thinks I'm a freak? Mind you, I have never had a boyfriend. Ugh, it's embarrassing. Nobodies even asked me out (except for my creepy stalker friend, and he's really creepy. But that's another story).

Being a teenager sucks.

You know what else I'm tired of? People telling me I should wear more color. Mind you, I don't make my face pale, wear black lipstick and never come out of the shadows, but I'm always either wearing a black shirt or a black hoody, and I like black. So get over it.

Gosh, I'm PMSing. (if you can't tell.)

You know whose a GIANT ASS HOLE!?!?!?!? Dick Masterson. Ugh,  he's such an ass hole!

Actually, I probably shouldn't mention him on here. He's everywhere. :-/ Okay, he's probably not everywhere, but he pisses me off so much that I can't even mention him because I'll talk about how much of an ass hole he is and how he should fucking get over himself and stop treating women like shit.

Okay, if you have no idea what I'm talking about, go on his website www.menarebetterthanwomen.com and it'll piss you off like none other. He basically thinks women are stupid, fat, lazy, whatever else bitches who should spend all their time either in the kitchen or having sex with their husbands. Oh, and we're all whores too.

Sometimes I can just go on his website and laugh. Othertimes, like today, I want to punch somebody really hard and I picture myself beating the crap out of that ass hole.

Oh, and this isn't slander because it's my own opinion... is that right? I should have paid more attention in journalism class.

Recently I've been really paranoid about getting sued. I don't know why, I have no idea. That's really weird...

Normality

I'm not sure if my fourth biggest fear is rational or not. I'm not sure if my second biggest fear of zombies is rational either, since zombies are obviously not real (I hope). But my fourth biggest fear is growing up being normal. Is it just me or do adults seem to do the same boring things every day? Like, I would LOVE it if Neverland were real. I would go there and stay forever. It's just, I look at the adults around me and they seem so miserable. Why would I want to grow up if all adults are bored all the time with their totally normal average lives? I don't want to live like that. I want to go rebel against the current system and live on edge. I want to travel the world in style, meet interesting people, see great places. I want to live in New York City where anything could possibly happen at any given moment. I want to be really old with my super sexy young husband and look back at life knowing I fulfilled all my lifetime goals.

I really don't understand the adults who hate their job, hate their neighborhood, hate their spouse yet go along with it. Why would they do that? Why don't you do what you want to? Ugh, it frustrates me. Perhaps they're thinking that they might get screwed over in the end, but if your already miserable then what risk are you even taking? You only get one life!

I just had to let this out there. I don't think this is a very good post but I am terrified of this happening to me. Maybe I have to look back at this post when I'm 18 or 19 and remind myself that there's more to life than being normal. What fun is being normal? I don't necessarily think being called weird is an insult, personally. Weird people are just people who don't go along with everything else. I don't think there's anything wrong with life like that.